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10 Things that Made Me Happy Today :)


Today was a very stressful day – preparing revisions for final exams and all the reading that is yet to be done. Each day is unique from the ones that have gone by so I just have to try to always be happy each day to make my everyday worthwhile. Today, these things made me happy :

1. Talking to God first thing after waking up. Reading few verses from the Bible each day gives me enormous strength to carry on with the day’s tasks as I know that I am not doing these tasks alone but the two of us (God & I).

2. Skyping with my two angels always strikes inspiration.

3. Food. Eating boosts me especially if it is my favorite food. I’ve had one of my favorites (wintermelon tea) today so I am extra happy.

4. Music. Oh, I cannot live without it. I have my daily playlist. I hum to myself during travel from home to school, it makes me happy to be able to express my feelings through the lyrics of the songs.

5. Diary. My day isn’t complete without writing in my organizer/diary. If I forgot to bring it, I feel a li’l incomplete and sad.

6. Reading. My favorite past time. A good novel makes my day extra flourishing. Now, it’s Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn. Heard it’s going to be a movie soon.

7. Clothes. I love to dress up invariably. So, even if I can’t afford to buy them all I still take a photo of the beautiful clothes whenever I pass by them. Somehow, at least the photo cheers me up.

8. Pictures. Oh how I enjoy taking photos of almost anything that catches my attention – my friends, my food, the chaos in the city, a beautiful dress/boots on a mannequin, just about anything.

9. Cooking. I didn’t realise it before but nowadays I make my study breaks my cooking time. It makes me happy being still productive during my breaktime and relieves some of my stress.

10. My favorite part of the day was retiring at night. I have this special routine – massage my and Jojo’s face and feet; massage my husband’s back; and throwing sarcastic jokes on each other. Before I knew it, he’s already snoring holding my hands or hugging me whilst I am still busy reading my novel.




The Songs of my Life


“Who’d have thought this is how the pieces fit. You and I shouldn’t even try making sense of it. I forgot how we ever came this far…Love moves in mysterious ways.” I can relate so much to this song. After the bitter falling out of relationship and thereafter becoming a single mother, I thought my life was at a total impasse. I met my one true love but was treated with reproach by his kin at first, making all attempts to forestall my happy ever after. Yet, no matter how horrific the situation looked to me, we did succeed in making our love a long and lasting love. Bewildering but true! The magnanimity of true love will overcome all dubiousness.

I have always loved life and all that surrounds it. I guess that contributed gaiety to my personality despite the tantamount obstacles I have encountered during my entire life. However, there were rare moments when I feel daunted and it succumbs me. Then, I do self-retrospection, thinking if I did all the right thing. It seems that I did during that time. It looks like I’ve been not only to a hundreds of places but also through a tremendous number of experiences, yet, I still do not fully comprehend myself. Hence, the song “Never Been To Me” has always been one of my favorites.

I have always been an old-fashioned “only” when it comes to songs. Ha ha. Thus, all the songs I like are mostly from an old genre. There is one modern song, though, that I reckon I can relate to as well. “Just Give Me a Reason” reminds me of the many nuisance of marriage. Those times were synonymous to going crazy. One day I was incorrigible, then, on the next I would change decision erratically. Despite the grueling pro’s & con’s battle-of-the-mind, at the end of the day I would still believe in my principles and will not lose my faith in God and to this man who He had entrusted me to be with. So, that is my little bit of reason why I am still here, not sulking, but ambling through the joys and struggles of my marriage.

These two songs will always be in my playlist when I do videoke – “My Girl, My Woman, My Friend” and “I’d Still Say Yes”. I dedicate them to my husband who will always be my friend and enemy; and who despite my many evil plans of leaving behind I would always resort to coming back.



Of all the things I hold in high regards, rules are not one of them. I have my own set of principles dictated not by norms but by virtue of my faith in God, my values, and my instincts. I will not place my children’s fate in the hands of guru wannabees but on these same set of principles I hold dearly in life. Why go to the middleman when I can go directly to the Supplier?




Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

I Just Know


I went to a place I didn’t know anything about. I just know someone up there must be kind enough to allow me to pass all the requirements. So I thought maybe that someone wanted me here. Then each day becomes a trial stronger than yesterday. People started asking, “Do you feel that it is still right for you to be here?”. And I answered Yes. This might be a new place, but this is not the biggest trouble I ever had in my entire life. And that someone had always taken very good care of me in the past. So I know that He will continue to hold my hand so I can continue walking blinded by faith. I just know…..




My life has finally came to a plateau. It took one good final turn already, if I may say. What made me say so? Well, for one, I didn’t want to refer to my past as something unworthy, bland, or anything that will look like hell. But, yeah, it really did look like a living hell. I made awful mistakes, lots of mess which I did not at all regret because it made me survive, made me happy, made me more mature and care more for other people. The only thing I regret was when I lost my tooth to tooth decay, had it filled, but the pain is still there. The friendly family dentist had to saw some of my gum in order to detect the damaged tooth clearly. The tooth’s causing me too much pain already. So, I decided the easy way out, have it extracted, and there you go the tooth was gone! Now, I am thinking, I should have saved it up to the very last minute. Lucky for me, it was not a front tooth. Else, I wouldn’t have resorted to that. There you go, that was my only REGRET.




The night has gone;
It’s a fresh start now.
Leaves have fallen & dried.
A new fruit soon to say , “Hi”.

Maybe it’s time to compromise;
Let go of some values,
Accept things which I cannot change on him.
Persuade him more to look at the same direction.

But how do you do compromise?
Do you start letting go of your principles?
Should I become less responsible and more carefree?
Or should I just keep my mouth shut?

Whatever and however is yet to see;
All I know is I want to start the brand new year differently;
And start writing on a blank 365-page diary in a different style, font and colour;
Without jeopardizing my ‘own self’ relentlessly.